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1st photo. How much I've read about dogs, since December? Mid December I think. Which is actually quite little because I've been procrastinating. And I still have to write down stuff. And I went to Europe and I'm now left with so little pages. But I think I'll put a stop to this book for now, because the next half I'm gonna read is about taking care of a dog, training a dog and common illnesses in dogs, which is sooooooo interesting right? But firstly, I don't have a dog to "hands on" with and secondly the illnesses part which I want to write down, again, requires a lot of time too. But at least I'm done with all the dog breeds registered in the American Kennel Club. So... Yay?

2nd photo. the left overs cos my book has no more space and I don't wanna start on a new thick book cos I'll be wasting it. Don't be fooled by how little there is, it's all double sided okay!

3rd photo. My doggy notebook. funny how the front cover is a picture of a kangaroo. Well, my brother bought this for me in Australia, so yeah...

4th photo. How the content page looked like. There are actually a few groups, sporting breeds, non-sporting breeds, herding breeds (can you believe german shepherd's in the herding breed? Kinda believable actually since there're called "shepherd" for a reason. But then again, look at the job they are doing now?), toy breeds, hound breeds, working breeds, terrier breeds and the miscellaneous class.

5th and 6th photos. How the pages in my book look like.

7th photo. The Golden Retriever page. I've always dreamt of having one of these, or rather, taking care of my own dog. I'd consider naming him Bruno, since Bruno was the name of my best friend in my childhood days. Yes, Bruno is a dog, a golden retriever actually. He's probably gone by now. But he was a really loyal and faithful dog, well, at least he listened to me even though I'm just his dog-sitter. But what else can a dog do when a girl is holding on to its leash right? But technically he could have dragged me away or ran away cos at that time I think he was about twice my size? But then I'd stick to my childhood dream of naming my golden retriever Shadow. Why Shadow? It was the name of the Golden Retriever in the show Homeward Bound, my favourite childhood movie. Heard of it?

8th photo. The Akita page. It's my favourite dog actually, although I wouldn't rule out the fact that I have a lot of favourites - Golden Retriever, Labrador Retriever (except the black coloured ones), German Shepherd, Siberian Husky - but Akitas are adorable. And I wish that one day I can visit the Hachiko Bronze Statue outside the Shibuya Station. I watched the movie, like twice, and cried, twice. The dog was super loyal and affectionate and devoted. Sigh. Dogs are amazing creatures.

9th photo. Yorkshire Terrier! The cutest I've ever seen was the one in High School Musical? Hahaha! Anyways, I hope that my mum will honour her empty promise and get me one after A levels. I made a deal with her, saying that I will have a lot of time to take care of the dog from puppy to adulthood (I mean during the puppy stage I want to train my dog myself you know?). But I doubt she'll let me. My only hope is to go study abroad and buy a dog there. Besides, there is a wider variety there than in Singapore. I told myself that if I were to study in Australia I'd buy myself a Silky Terrier! It's similar to the Yorkshire, but bigger.

I'm sorry, but did I bore you guys?

Anyways, my blog entry usually starts with a greeting, so...

Hello!

Today was rather... Tiring. I went for a JC crash course from like, 9am to 3pm. It was super tiring, considering the fact that I slept at 2:30am and woke up at like, 7am? But I snoozed for half an hour haha I love the snooze button. But I learnt quite a lot of stuff and my General Paper TYS is already flooded with words. Okay not really flooded but you get what I mean. And I know what you must be thinking. Mugger toad ttm? Hahah my mum signed me up for it, so I had no choice. But I guess it's a good idea to see what GP is like before I actually sit and do the papers. Yikes. Thoughts about JC just scares me. And there's another one tomorrow. Hopefully I survive it.

And to the friend who has been avoiding me since, I don't know when, I hope you'll stop. It hurts, and it hurts even more when I don't know why you are avoiding me and not replying my texts. I genuinely care about you, and I really hope that you'll reply and tell me you're okay. I thought you treated me, or rather, regarded me as your friend when you told me you were not just honouring your promise when you said you would take a photo with me. But now, I'm not too sure. And I doubt you'll be reading this. But if you do, miraculously if you do, please reply me. I know you've read my messages, whether it was a text or through whatsapp (there was a double tick), please just reply. I may not be like, important to you but I still care and I'll always be here for you, if you ever need a friend. And it's been a week already, well, sort of a week, but still, please.

I just don't feel important in anybody's life. It's like I can be cast aside so easily. Somehow I just wish I have someone by my side, to listen to me rant and rant and rant, with no interruptions. Sigh.

I feel so open sometimes, like when I first meet someone I'm not afraid of showing the person and telling the person who I really am, my likes and dislikes, things that annoy me etc. You know open? But I guess it's okay cos I feel real like that, like I have nothing to hide. Of course there will be secrets no one knows, but then again, some things are meant to be kept to myself, right? So even though I'm living in an environment full of hypocrites, liars and gossipmongers, at least I'm as real as real can be right? Or at least I try to be as real as real can be. No one can be real all the time, right?

Oh and I think I am a very bad influence. I am afraid of heights. But when I saw Anisha climbed that thing I wanted to climb it too. So, my impulse decision left me stuck on top, refusing to come down and when I looked down I feel like dying because I think I'm gonna fall and die even though I'd probably survive and not break a leg. We were at a children's playground. Can you imagine the height? But yeah I was like "Fuck why is it so high oh my gosh just let me die already why the fuck did I do this!" And then I realised, there were kids around and parents too...

But the parents were laughing and smiling at me. I guess everyone's being more liberal and open-minded now, and the F word isn't a really bad thing. But still, I should refrain from saying it when possible, especially not in front of kids! Thank goodness I have no younger siblings, or else they will be led astray, verbally.

Oh.

I screamed at my mum today, for no apparent reason. She just told me to reply my brother IMMEDIATELY because it was THE BROTHER who texted me all the way from Cambodia and I said later cos I was busy with my dog book and she had to stand there, telling me time and again to reply him first. So I kinda blew my top and yelled at her and replied with a brief "yeah" to his "are you at home?" question. Like what else could I say? And it's not like it'll have any impact on him whether I was home or not, he just wanted to know what time the Man U match was.

Speaking of the Man U match, should I watch? It's been a while since I watched soccer. Honestly, I've never lose interest in anything I do, and to think I've had interest in soccer for the longest time ever, back when Beckham and Van Nistelrooy was still in Manchester United. So what happened to me? I'm too tired. It's 11pm already. Should I read? Or turn in?

Maybe I should just go read my book. I need plans for next week. I don't want to be left alone because I'd start thinking and become a momo kid again.

So far I'll be meeting Nicole on Monday morning for her supposedly happiest day yet it's a sad day, but I have no plans in the afternoon...

Tuesday I hope we'll be going to USS. We as in Nicole and I.

Wednesday I'll be meeting Cheryl, Geena, Kitju to celebrate Geena and Kitju's birthdays. It's going to be awesome!!

Thursday I have no plans at all. Friday too. Guess I should go back to Cedar on Friday. It's CNY celebrations after all. Thursday... Should go watch a movie, maybe two in a day. Viral Factor and Journey to Mysterious Island. I'll be watching the former with Sherry I guess but the latter? I have no idea. Sigh.

I need plans, desperately.

Okay do long posts turn people off? Did I just turn you off? Hahaha! If you've made it here, congrats to you because it's the end of the post!

Toodles,

Joyce.